last sunday night

this was sunday night, cold and clear.

i know, i know.
it was "cold".

europe will still be chilly, but i'm looking forward to hot chocolate and carafes of wine.


not working.


sooo. damn. close.

we are inches away from getting these tickets.


if i think about it too much, i start panting, salivating and foaming at the mouth.




no WONDER i ended up throwing up this night.

(actually.... i realize it was probably because i tried smoking for the first time. ever. and it was nasty.)


more ZZZZZs, please

these grey rainy wintry (64 degrees!) days make me want to sleep in. ... or sleep under my desk with my little heated throw.

i'm feeling vaguely irritated that my coworkers conned me into being the pickup person for our lunch. yesterday, as they left, they let me know they were thinking of getting lunch out. ooo! yay! this morning we gathered in their office to pick out orders and decide on a pick-up time - "oh, no, we can accommodate your schedule and get the food whenever! we were going to have you pick it up."


typical. i'll be less irritated once i get my hot & sour soup. *sigh* but i'll not be tricked again, bastards.

i'm also irritated at anthony's boss, who isn't being prompt about anthony's vacation time in march. we need to book tickets, bitch! get with it and get him an answer! TODAY!!

and more irritation at the disgusting coffee/half n half fiasco this morning:

things that make me really sad.

yes. i am highly anticipating lunch. my hunger is not easing the Grump within.

massage? more coffee? nap?

sadly, no.

just work and cold fingers.


gettin' on

about a week ago, i finally got around to getting custom orthopedic inserts made! these are my plaster feet casts.

when i was in elementary school (or was it middle?), my mom had some clear amber ones made for me. i have rolling ankles, see, and they're a bit weaker than most ankle joints. and i hated them! it was difficult to find shoes that fit (that i also liked and would wear) and when i wore them in gym class, they'd shift forward in my shoes so that i'd land on the back edge with my heel, causing me insane amounts of pain. i still cringe in pain thinking about it.

so they went away.

and now, 20 years later i really realize... my ankles suck. and i need to really do something about it. it's funny that i'd never done anything about it before. i knew they were bad, but just... you know how it goes. you're young, you're invincible. screw the future pain!

i had been told that my ankles, on account of their rolling in, would give me ankle pain, knee pain, hip pain and lower back pain. and so far... all true. well, except for the hip pain.

my ankles hurt when i walk for any long amount of time and my lower back has been giving me pain even when i'm not on my period. after i fell while bowling (injuring my ankle) and threw my back out (while carrying a 20 lb. sewing machine) - i've just been a mess. i always take elevators when i have to go up floors and i don't get to be as active as i'd like.

well, soon this shall all change! soon my sage green newfangled shoe inserts will arrive! i've been told that the technology is better and while i will still have trouble finding shoes, it's not as horrific as before. plus, my camper shoes should work well with them - i can't wait to try! i've been holding off on buying new shoes just for these inserts.

they totally make me feel old, to be getting them. but i suppose the point is that i won't FEEL as old wearing them.


back when


in december (christmas day, actually!) i had the time to go through a lot of my photos and upload them to flickr. i may share them randomly as they come to mind.

here's the wedding reception we crashed when meaghan and i stayed out at the postcard inn! it was lovely enough outside to leave the door open, eat cheese and drink wine and watch the festivities.

i am super in love with their lantern setup outside. i told anthony that i wanted to do this to our backyard at some point - it would make me sooo happy! not to mention it would look fabulous for nighttime desserts in the backyard.




when maddox watches tv, he really watches tv. he's so intense and his face goes through so many emotions! it's pretty freaking adorable.


yum cha at chopstix

from january 2nd, 2011 - impromptu family visit, followed by napping on the couch.


new year's

and that was my new year's!

anthony was horribly sick on christmas and i was horribly sick on new year's. we spent our holidays together, on a couch or in bed napping all day long, respectively. on christmas, i cleaned up a bunch of photography files and on new year's, anthony worked on music files.

i can't remember the last time i slept that much - we're talking 2 naps a day, every day. sunday i began feeling better (you can always tell i'm feeling better when i start to clean). and yet, i was still able to sleep each night as well! waking up, sadly, multiple times during the night, due to coughing fits.